The Demon Lover

Tanto tiempo sin pasar por aquí. Bueno, pretendo revivir un poco este blog. Tengo muchos escritos, pero por alguna u otra razón no los he publicado. Alomejor porque están algunos incompletos, otros porque se sienten incompletos a pesar de ser larguísimos. Nunca sé cómo acabar un escrito. Pero bueno, centrémonos en este. Está en inglés, espero le entiendan, pero originalmente lo escribí para un concurso de Kamelot, que por cierto no ganó nada. Pero me gustó cómo quedo y por eso lo comparto... Cabe aclarar que está basado en una canción de Kamelot, dividida en 4 partes... Poetry For The Poisoned, de su más reciente disco. Este "poema" es mi interpretación de la canción... una historia, un relato, un cuento, una fábula en verso.



The Demon Lover



Pt. I Incubus


I have always been a disgrace among my race
For what we do I refuse to embrace
I have always feared that at the end
No one will remember my name...

We are taught to steal their souls
But we are told to never create bonds
Although love is the most powerful weapon
If we succumb to it we will be cast into oblivion

Or so they say, my species never have tried
Because our legends are of doom and hate
So we do not ask questions, we take comfort at our answers
Not knowing what they answer, but avoiding the disaster

Yet I still cannot find the motivation
To play with the maker's creation
For what good is it to someone enrage,
if you cannot see the anger in his face?

So I lose myself in the moment of leisure
Searching for something that can be called a treasure
Never finding anything in anywhere
Wishing to understand everything everywhere

Humans, these lovely creatures
You can feed to death in their ambitions
But not seeking for gluttony in them
My curiosity will prove that I'm truly damned

Maybe there are not as many as stars
But you can savor them just by looking their scars
Maybe they are not as big as suns
But you cannot imagine the beauty of their songs

Desiring everyone but not picking any
I have to find the right one, so hard to choose from this many
I see the shape of their bodies and the stains in their minds
Incredible to know that there are evils of many kinds

But finally one catches my attention
She shines as with divine intercession
A female of the beauty of a goddess
For her eyes one moment I am left godless

As I approach her I can feel her warmth
Suddenly I forget every notion of wrath
I can feel something that feels like pain
But is as pleasant as dying in vain

I kiss her lips and lock her eyes
And I feel like trapped under ice
Her mind opens and I feel her dreams
In her own world, nothing it's as it seems

Meaningless words and countless numbers
I can feel her soul as she slumbers
My every evil thought she smothers
And nothing but her hot blood matters

For the very first time I feel alive
As the time in the dream goes by
I refuse to believe is just a lie
That will banish once she comes back

As the dream ends, I refuse to go
But the day is here and if I stay I will turn to stone
Painfully I decide to leave
But I promise I will return every night that she lives...




Pt. II So Long

Every day she will return to her bed
Close her eyes and pretend to be dead
Every night I will be there for her
Giving her a dream she will never forget

I give her joy and take away her sorrow
So she will love me more tomorrow
I feel alive and she feels alright
I can even almost see the light

I learn everything, I feel even more
I forget all about me as I discover love
For years, I am what she wants me to be
Her life is all I at all see

But soon I will come to understand
That my magic her body cannot withstand
If I continue to every night come to her
At some point, I will dry my lover

I do not want to leave you
But if I carry on you will leave me
I am not selfish enough to kill you
I will let you go even if it kills me

But it is hard giving up and addiction
I say goodbye in every way I can think of
And harder it is when you show a strong conviction
You are in love with the illusion as I am with your blood

A bloody kiss goodbye will mark our departure
I want to leave you without a stain or a fracture
So you must forget the time you spent with me...
After all, for you it was nothing more than a dream

You have fed me for a long time
And you have fed me more than well
But if your soul I continue to bite...
I will put you through hell

The truth is that you have never been mine
But I have always, always been yours
Our incident will not affect time
These moments have only been ours...

Everything I have seen for you is priceless
But the end has come to my charade
Once I leave you, you will be boundless
The finale of this parade

As I walk away, I will not look back
But thinking of you I will depart
To never return to your side
Sadly, it will also end my life

Here it lays my blood and flesh
I will never dream you again
Without your taste I will lose your mind
Without your sight I am now blind

Long ago they told me something about love
That I cannot remember, but it boils my blood
Once they taught me something that was wrong
But I am in this world no more

I may still live, but I do not want to live on
The life I just truly lost
I feel no envy, I feel no lust
If I cannot be with her, I will not go on




Pt. III All is Over

I refuse to feed if it is not from you
I do not want to forget what I was with you
I cannot remember what I am to do
I am no one anymore, this is just untrue

They banish me and I do not care
They imprison me but I am not there
I remember a word, I am insane...
But the meaning does not make sense

I do not care if my life is over
It was over since long time ago
Time itself is just a lie without my lover
The one who I had to let go

A demon must always burn to pay its toll
The punishment they say to hurt more
But pain is painless to the one with no soul
There is nothing now that is worth dying for

My only and biggest regret
Is never learning her name
A word could have saved me
But it was not meant to be

So I call her my lover or my love
She in the end I let go like a dove
And I feel rage and despair over that
As I remember when next to me she sat

Every word has no real meaning
If there is no one to whisper it to
Every world loses feelings
When all that you believe is not true

My destiny is to never live again
If it is true that I was ever alive
Her melody is extinguishing in my head
In this solitude I barely feel how I die

I feel no pride but I do not remember why was it important
My past is no longer my concern as I was always dormant
My final words cast no echoes in the universe
But God knows that I grant you my last conscientious verse

I die alone and without grace
No one to help my inner pain
But I do not care as long as you are alive somewhere
Maybe in another life... I will wait you there



Pt. IV Dissection

As I meet the true death I am speechless
The world turns into something undescriptable
I am no longer blind and no longer feelingless
What I feel is everything more acceptable

But to my surprise, her face is not all I see
Memories of my mother and her loveless warm embrace
I remember what I called my life and everything that mattered to me
But all I want to remember in the afterlife is my beloved's face...

Dissected in this place I stand
Out of reach to the space and the time
Trivialities I come to understand
Yet I still seek the one I called mine

Then I feel strange, I feel so empty
I sense no pain, I sense no fear, I sense no envy
I am in peace yet I am looking for something more
That one thing I want to die for

I seek the truth and the knowledge no more
For they are not meant for me
I just want to be told
Where in this place can I find my love

My primitive desires are locked in my mind at last
In spite that this place is in them so vast
My incentives and anger are dissipated silently
I let go of myself while I drift away slowly

I accept this death and everything that carries
I let go of my madness and all of my worries
But I refuse to go without seeing her again
If I die without her sight this death would have been in vain

I see some angels, and among them even demons
Heaven or hell, little to me matters this subject
But for the first time I say a prayer to the earful
And if someone hears it, I hope no one to it objects

A silent answer to my every thought since I was born
The miracle appears as every rose loses its thorns
An invisible nod, I do not know how but I perceive it
The final answer approaches as I prepare to receive it

And as I dive into death
I see her face once again
She is smiling all over me
And I am at last free